Each time I step sideways to get to the extra refrigerator, I wonder how long I can go on like this.
Each time I shuffle aside baskets and pray I see the spider before it bites me, I think I’ll never get my life together.
Most of the time I try not to think about it. I get busy with my life, my schedule which these days feels like tedious routine. Meal planning, shopping, dishes that multiply as I am standing there washing them, laundry that never leaves the hallway floor – though I know I run several loads a day.
Do you ever feel like your life is conspiring against you? It’s not that I am unhappy. It’s not really that anything is majorly wrong. It’s just this over arching feeling that something is not quite right.
This slow leak of concern is subtly undermining my sense of contentment.
The bottom line is regardless of how I try to cut back, say no, build in time for relaxation, I cannot rest.
How do I find peace in the chaos? For the most part ignoring it has gotten me through the better part of the year, not to mention my life. But will I always feel trapped by my inability to finally get to the bottom of the stuff I need to deal with, let go of, make peace with?
My garage, as my refrigerator, is an indicator, a gauge of what is going on in the bigger picture of my life. So when I see the mess once again, I know what it means.
There are things going on in my life that I have not been willing to deal with. It’s not just about the clutter, the physical mess of papers and books, bags filled with unused school supplies, miscellaneous toys. It’s more about what is NOT getting done that I would dearly love to be doing. Love to be doing more than fretting over what I am not getting done.
My son playfully reminds me I am writing about what is not getting done while writing instead of getting it done. There is definitely some wisdom in this. Sure, I can see it.
But what I really want to know is WHY haven’t I dealt with it? Is it comforting to surround myself with stuff? I’m I truly just lazy? Do I truly need to avoid the inevitable? Or is there something more enlightening to be seen in this?
The admonition of “Just Do It” is guiltily creeping up my shoulder, lifting up on hind legs to screech in my ear.
Have you ever wondered what your clutter could tell you, if you dared to listen to it? Perhaps not. Mostly, I simply shutter and tell myself I need to do _____! ASAP! Or at least when I can squeeze it in.
But if I did listen to it…
- What do you really want to do, but have been afraid to acknowledge?
- Have you gathered us (insert specific pile of whatnot) together for a purpose, or has your focused moved elsewhere?
- In case of a fire, flood or avalanche, would you truly just leave us here? Or would you scramble to get to us before it is too late?
- If you never see me again, would you tell someone significant in your life about me?
- If I have to spend one more day looking at the same view, I am going to go insane. Won’t you consider passing me along? Let me live a little?
- Why don’t I have a home?
- What decision are you putting off by leaving me here?
- You know, you’re really good at _______!
- I can see you value _______.
- Why are we still here??
- Again, would the world come to an end if you got rid of me?
- If I were gone, what possibilities come to mind right now for you?
It’s funny how clutter speaks in questions! Clutter isn’t negative. It is merely discerning. When I avoid the clutter, I fill my brain and my heart with more negative thoughts further crowding out what I most want to do and think and say.
I am a huge fan of breaking things down into easy bite-sized pieces. Please join me as I break down the clutter in my home into tiny chunks that get me from where I am now to where I would rather be.
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Join me here for 31 Days of Clearing a Path and find out what your clutter is saying to you!
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